From Aug 20, 2009

Today, medical technology will save my BFF’s life. Sending a huge thank you to the universe and to the docs who will help with this. They don’t know exactly how awesome the woman is that they’re saving, but I do. And pssst…. Cancer? You little fucker…. You can kiss our collective ASS!!! We’re stronger than you.

From Jul 15, 2009

If thoughts become things, then worry is a negative prayer.

It has all the elements of a prayer– the emotion, the energy, the focus.

I mustn’t worry.

My BFF was diagnosed with breast cancer last week.  Instead of worrying, I must focus on the energy of healing and health.

It’s not easy.  Especially when emotions are involved.

However… it’s the only option.  Attitude changes the lens through which we see life.  I can choose a positive, healthful perspective, or I can take a frightened, helpless perspective.

So, I choose… well, duh.  I choose a healthful, hope-filled, faithful attitude.

I need to be reminded here, too.   Emotion makes all things rational fade into the horizon.  Yet… I’m not an overly emotional person.  I can be cheerful about this, even…

Sometimes there aren’t any words.

Sometimes there’s just positive healing energy.

That’s what *I* can do.  I have that within my control.

In the mean time, you can do the same.  Please send positive energy her way.  I need you to do this.

From Jul 9, 2009

What. A. Week.

It’s been a particularly rough one, though over all I do believe I’m faring rather well.

One of my favorite people in the universe, my BFF, was diagnosed with breast cancer.  Less than 24 hours later, my cousin-in-law passed away at the age of twenty-one, from leukemia.  If there was no other message to me (which there weren’t, there were many), it was that I can’t continue smoking.  I get this.  I have noted the signs.  Roger that, no more necessary hints…

One thing is for certain.  I intend on giving my BFF as much laughter and positive energy as she needs in order to know she’s going to get through this.  I believe that miracles are directly related to laughter.  I also know that with faith and hope and joy, anything is possible.  A friend of mine has a cousin, who was diagnosed with grade four ovarian cancer who, against all odds, beat cancer in fewer than six months.

Every one of these people is my age or younger.  I am reminded of the temporary nature of our experience here on earth.  I’m also reminded not to take for granted any of my relationships.  I am truly blessed with amazing friendships that fulfill my life so completely.

Once upon a time, death was only a fairy tale.  Now I understand that it’s an integral part of life.  Instead of feeling calloused, though… I feel very blessed.  Each day is a new opportunity.